Tootie

Well Tottie did'nt fair well with her frist pragancy ..she had 2 baby's that wernt fully devolped and they were born sleeping ..it started Friday afternoon (late afternoon ) Tottie was bellowing and hollering and hunching in the goat fashion to be bringing some baby goats on to the Ranch ..I spent most my time with her Friday (till it got to cold for me ) just before I was going to call it a night and go in Tottie delivered her frist sleeping baby (so heart breaking ) she was freaking out ..My husband had to grab the baby and help her deliver it (usally I do all this but being in a 1/2 air cast boot I couldnt get in the birthing center we have set up )
After Tootie had that baby she was worn out but still contracting ..I ran to the house got a old blanket went to the barn got some sweet grain and some whole corn (Totties favorite ) got her some freash cold water ...I set it all up sat with Tottie for alil while and came in ..she so needed to calm down and rest ..Ed and I checked on her before we went to bed ..turned on the heat lamp (just in case she had the other baby in the night )
Ed and I got up and were outside e Tottie in the birthing center when we noticed that she had delivered anthor baby ..this one was smaller and was not devolped ..Oh she was SCREAMING HEART WRENCHING cries looking for those sweet babies ..Oh I cried I heard her heart break I heard the where are my babies cry ..Ed and I decided that she needed to come out of the birthing center ! We let her out she has been all over the yard looking for her babies ..I know this is the way that nature takes its corse and I have been riduclued for caring about these baby goats born sleeping ..I was asked why am I so upset over losing 2 baby goats ..well it is as simple as can be ! Ed and I dont have children (my fault ) and our fur babies are our kids ..with every up and down we have we document it all feel it and go through it with our fur babies just cause they are not kids to them dosnt mean they are not kids to us ..everyone lives loves and thinks diffrent then the next person and that is why the world goes around the way that it dose (my dad always told me everyone has the same tools we just have diffrent tools ) I think that is accurate! Just cause I think that the statement is true dosent I have to want to use the other persons tools you know ?
So Tootie lost the babies it is hard for her as well as us ..for I am going to use my anmails to bring awarness to diffrent causes ..then when I get my BA in 3 1/2 years I will use my anmails as a tool to reach children that are abused have mental disorders or just children that need alil love ..I have grand plans I have a whole world out there that needs alil loving touch you know ? so to lose these babies is a big loss to me ..no one understands my heart my drive ..they cant grasp that this is more then it looks ll of this is done for the betterment of me and others that my anmails will touch in the years to come. It is so hard to explane my heart my drives my wants my needs as well as Lil Totties or my other anmails ..
So today we love on Tootie and keep things going here on the Ranch for the future and my dreams