Saturday, November 29, 2008
Yesterday was the worst day ever I mean worst ...I am the type of person who trys to help people I LOVE anmails and I would do anything to make anyone smile ...so on thanksgiving I go and get my brother in law a cat (Unapprated ) then yesterday I was going to get my sister in law a dog that I had found on craigs list .. Daisy is a lil shitztoojust like Shades my dog above but she was only 3 pounds :) I fell in love with her from the start I called my husband and him and his brother ganged up on me I told Ed I couldnt get rid of the dog I fell in love with her ...I even told Carol that she was going to hate me cause I couldnt let go ...Carol understood but I got it from both Don and Ed when I had spent all this time looking for them a cat and a dog and I spent my money going and getting the dog and cat and Carol thought I was going to work until 1pm so she had no idea that I was going to get Daisy
What made it so bad is my husband again let his drunk ass brother disrespect me and he did as well he called me stuiped and retarded ...I dont care if your mad at someone you dont say mean things like that ...I am very angry I was pushed to give this dog away I was yelled at screamed at told I was a bitch and even that I am self centered ...I am hurt cause no matter what my husband and his brother bullied me into giving my sister in law that dog and no matter what they do I will never forgive either one of them ...my husband for the treatment and letting me disrespected and treating me so badly and breaking my heart to make his brother happy ...my christmass spirt is gone the happiness that goes with christmass is gone Hubby and I are fighting ...he said I have to have everything he bought me a ring (witch has been promissed for years ....and I told him not to but he wnt and did it anyways then he throws this crap in my face ...I dont even want the ring I dont want to look at him infact I was so heart broken and upset that I went to bed at 8 pm so I didnt have to look at him anymore
He thinks that him and his brother can tell me what to do and how to do and they can control me welp let me tell you this the brother is a worthless drunk and my Man is a bobble head ass hole period ...the whole time we been married hubby has let his whole flicken family disrespect me ...Ive had to throw his brother into the wall cause he was drunk and said that I wasnt part of the family cause I cant have kids ...its not my fault I was one step below uterus cancer and at age 21 they took my uturas ...it was my chioce either go on and try to have a baby and get cancer (cancer runs in my family ) or have my baby maker taken out so that it would slim my chances of having cancer ...but no I am broken no good and a peice of shit cause I cant have kids ...at frist I wanted kids BAD but now it dont make a shit to me I dont want kids ...but yet I can be disrespected cause I cant have kids ...oh no hubby didnt do nothing to tell his brother he wont accept that disrepect to me either I am to the point where I am going to leave my husband if this shit dont stop insteed of disrespecting me and treatin mer bad and bulling me why dosnt he try talking to me why dose it always have to pan out where his brother gets to treat me badly ???I will tell you that I am not giving no anmails away I am not finding anmails for no one I am not doning for no one ...you wanna know why its not apprated ...
I dont know whats going to happen today my heart is broke and I am very angry with hubby right now I think I will stay away from him for a couple of days I wont even try explaning cause nothing happenes when I do and he would rather make his brother happy rather then me 18 years is 18 years to flicken long to be disrespected by my brother in law ....
So now I dont have Daisy Hubby is being a bobble head and brother in law looks as if he is the cat that ate the bird ...and I the one who did all the hard work am a peices of shit ....I dont know why I think after so meany years of being mistreated by hubbys brother that it would change
Im to upset to go on with this post cause I am so upset
The pic is of my dog Shades and its there to kick off the Christmass Season Ya right mine is ruined from the get go !!!!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Lets see what do I wanna blog about today ...
What about one of my heartprint friends is having a very hard time and is soon to be leaving her husband (X Best Friend) for the disrespect that him and his child give to her on the dialy basis (witch pisses me off by the way )
Or about how my step sister beat my Step Mom and 1/2 brother and I mean really beat them took thier truck and spread lies about my family ...now my Step Mom is from my real Dad ...My Dad died of cancer 2 years this July ...Ed and I have kept constant contact with Dads sisde of the family ...I must say it just burns my ass that anyone could lay thier hands on thier parents to hurt them ...I just dont get it and refuse to cause I would never ever raise a hand to my real mother or disrespect her in any mannor I accept everyone for who and what they are
Lets talk about my Mom who has 48% heart function and Liver Fauiler with a HARDERENED Liver ....yes it is cause of my Moms drug use (she pops pills ) she has been in the hospital 10 times in just as meany months ...each time I think that it dosnt effect me ...but it dose ...I hate how my family treats my Mom ...its like HELLO STUIPED Mom has been doing this her whole life or my whole life it is taking a toll on her body now
Lets talk about my roommate that is bearly a week in and I wanna rip his man hood off I dont get mad often but when I do it is hard for me to let it go but my roommate uses his illness to his benifit and to gian things and this drives me crazy as well as he is LAZY and dose nothing at all and expects dinner made for him ...ummmm excuse me I only worry about Ed and I ...yes I have a roommate but I have a family frist ...so hard to explane
I am going to a friends house to listen to his band and hang out I will stop at anthor friends house and see my lil heartbeat
Thursday, November 20, 2008
This is Shades and Hank I am the proud owner of 3 gunnie pigs but this is the best pic that I have of the Gunnies
Shades is on my husband and so is Hank I dont have a problem with Shades trying to get or eat my Gunnies infact I put Shades in the play pen with them when it is time for exercizing ...My husband built a bad to the bone cage for Stach (Whos a Girl )and Cookie Stach is 3 months and Cookie is a year ...I did let Hank have his Gunnie Pig way with Stach so we shall see if she got pregoin a month or so Cookie cant be bred cause if she dose get pregnate then it could kill her so I keep her far far away from Hank for he is quite frisky lol
I dont know how all this Gunnie Pig stuff started with me ...I got 2 for free off of criags list then they were fighting fighting I mean blood slug on the wall and all so I gave Guss to my Brother In Law then I got the 2 girls and they started fighting so I had to seprate them as well but I kept both of them
I will slowly be showing all my anmails and opening up about alot that is going on in my life cause none of my family have this blog addy and I am not about to give it out to any of them ...this is my hiding spot from everyone this is where I can share my thoughts and emotions on everything form my life to my familys life that interacts with me ...to showing off my pride and joys (My anmails ) Im not able to have children so I have oddles of anamils ..most of you work for your bills me I work for my anmails and wouldnt have it any other way ....
So Jump Aboard My Lifes & Pets Train